Royal George Academy

Nov 9th 2007- May 16th 2008

Anonymous

I was sent there for family issues. (I wasn’t living with my parents but my grandparents) My parents knew I wouldn’t go on a trip with them so they had my real father take me (I’d see him once a year if was lucky.)I went and was left there in a state of shock. I was with a group of around ten other males and had to adjust to life with them. I remember my first week there every day was fight and being in shock no one would come to break it up. I remember one person got it more than any one else and always got it the worst. I figured out if I stayed to myself and out of the way of some the more trouble some people they left me alone. I remember some of the students would force others to do humiliating things like pour hot sauce up their nose or shower with another student. Most of the “Supervisors” didn’t do any thing to stop it and even some encouraged the behavior. I remember waking up in the mornings and some times people would just disappear. They call it being “goobernapped.” People would come and take students away usually to places worse than RGA least by what we were told. During my time there three riots were organized and happened by the other students. People would run around with the faces covered, throw things and even beat up a target student. I was lucky though. Through some kind of respect I don’t understand to this day I was left alone by the other males and listened to as almost a voice of reason earning me the nickname Gandhi. They’d have the meetings every day were every one would have to come clean with every rule they broke and the group would then choose who needed “help” and we’d give them the best advice we could. Some times we’d have random one after an incident for example (maybe a fight or some one just would break down). I remember every thing we said to the outside world was heavily monitored. It was like a mine field when you tried to beg for help from the outside. The supervisors would edit emails or even not send them and phone calls could be just cut off without a moments notice. Every day you’d wonder if you ever would get out. Some would try to run away or attempt suicide. The ceiling is what I remember very clearly. I remember just staring at it afraid the next morning I’d wake up in the back car being taken some where else.

Now it’s nearly seven years later as I write this (you can thank new years resolution for that.) I still have nightmares some times wake up nearly screaming. The events, people and the place itself burned into my memory. I’ve developed PTSD. I grew my hair out long to help remind myself when I start to wake up I’m not there any more. I still fear waking up in the back of a car being taken back there or worse. I remember waking up the first day of college in the dorms and having a panic attack thinking I was in RGA again. I have a lot of sleepless nights and trouble trusting others so I keep to myself a lot. As I sit here writing this I want whoever is reading this to never send their child to a place like this. I’ve been living in fear for the last seven years over a place I know has closed it’s doors and I honestly don’t know when I’ll be able to get over that fear. I also apologize for my poor organization, I wrote this spontaneously and just as it all came to mind. Just please do every thing you for your child, don’t resort to this solution and if you feel like it help try to stop them before theirs more victims.

Thank you for letting me tell my story.