I was put into this program shortly after my 17th birthday. I had a hard life up till that point. My father committing suicide at a young age, hurricane Katrina making us have to leave Louisiana, and being bullied all of grade school. At 3:45 in the morning I was woken up in my room at my parents house by two large men, one of which was pointing a police style taser at me. I wasn’t wearing any clothes, and at 17 years old both men watched me get fully dressed. After that one man continued to hold the taser on me, while the other put a body harness on me attached to a tow rope like leash. They told me I was going to a psych ward down the road for a couple weeks, and that I would be back in time to be able to pick up my date to go to my senior year Homecoming dance. I was put on a plane, all the while walking through an airport with a grown man holding me on a leash. We left Houston, and landed in Las Vegas. We got in a rental car in Vegas, and drove the rest of the way to LaVerkin, Utah. The intake was the first of many brutal experiences to come. Stripped down to literally nothing, they took everything, including a cross necklace I was wearing that my father gave to me when I was young. I am bi-polar II, major depressive, and ADHD. They used these mental illnesses to their advantage, preying on them to be able to use attack therapy to tear me down. Tearing someone down sometimes works, as long as you plan to build them back up. The latter part never came. Day after day of getting put in the special needs room for violating some obscure rule i hadn’t even heard of yet. The special needs room, a 5×2 room with wood floors, was a space they would bring me in at least once a week. As I would be escorted down the halls to the room, I would mentally be preparing myself for was what inevitable. I tried to always stay optimistic, thinking maybe I would win this time. But the outcome was always the same. They would send in one man, using MADT training, to try and get you to the ground. I usually was able to handle 1 man in the special needs room, but when that happens they send in 3 or more. They get you to the ground, force you onto your stomach by whatever means necessary, then two or more men will sit on key pressure points, cutting off your air supply, until you pass out from lack of oxygen. When you come back to, you can either correct whatever infraction you committed, or “choose” to go through the MADT process again. That was a small part of the physical torture. The physiological and emotional damages caused by Bryan Parker , and Ron Garret is something I’m still dealing with to this day. I had two suicide attempts while incarcerated at Cross Creek, and after being “caught” during both attempts, was promptly brought to the special needs rooms for “individual treatment ” also known as MADT. I tried using drugs, alcohol, relationships, even self harm over the years to try and blur the memories of this place, but they still invade my dreams. I’ve overdosed on street drugs twice, trying to escape the physiological damage this place caused. I finally decided to get help for my drug addiction, and got into recovery. Now that I’m sober, I’m trying to find a therapist somewhere in this world I can trust to help trudge their way into these intrusive memories, help me shift through everything and deal with it somehow, so I can move on with my life. I was 17 years old when I got sent to Cross Creek. I’m 29 now. I still cant trust anyone with anything on emotional levels, platonic or romantic relationships. How am I supposed to find a therapist, the ones that did this to me in the first place, that I trust to open pandoras box and help deal with all this. All I wanted when I was growing up was to be a husband someday and have a family. Now I don’t even trust when a friend tells me they’ll talk to me tomorrow, that I’ll ever hear from them again.
DECLARATION UNDER PENALTY OF PERJURY
PURSUANT TO 28 USCA 1746
I, Daniel M. declare and state as follows:
Name of Program:
Cross Creek
Location of Program:
Laverkin, Utah
Period of Internment (MM/YY to MM/YY)
09/07 to 10/08
I give WWASPSurvivors permission to use this statement. I declare under penalty of perjury that the foregoing is true and correct. Executed on(date: MM/DD/YY):
04/17/19
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